When no one to trust...

Humans are hypocrite and selfish...

They never think of you when they have lots of benefits...

They only realise your existence when there's a problem to be solved!

Human... are cruel..

Whom can I trust?

From this valuable experience,I strongly believe that from this moment onward I [TRUST NO ONE]...

Decision made!

I don't trust you again though you are my FRIEND!

When somethings that benefits you,you keep it for yourself; When there's a problem,you blamed it to me as you don't know anything..

Yes,I agreed you are smart and know how to play tricks! But,can you please don't play tricks with me??!!

I have enough with you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! FUCKER!!!!!! pui~~~@@

You only realise the mistakes I made,the weakness of myself...but have you look at mirror once?

I keep silence,I know its might kills,but..you left me no choice,I damn HATE you now...

I learned a very valuable lesson from you!

Countdown for STPM...

It's coming unknowingly..

I was unprepared,looking at the calender,waiting to the times to pass......................

28 days to go...

seems like going to pay my revenge soon...

I remembered the days before SPM,yet..I was unprepared...that's why I ended up studying in Form 6...

I'm going to pay my debt,hopefully this time,I can defeat it cruelly,leaving no regrets in my future days...

I'm in the nerve-breaking condition each day,undergo strenuous life and suffering insomnia every single night...

I'm worried about the results,I'm worried I can't score a good result to enable me to pursue my degree course in local university..these strange feelings are terrifying...

Who knows? NO ONE....,God knows the best...

This is my final exam,I MUST make sure I can do it...

I MUST.............................

Now,I'm hoping the LUCK to be with me all the time..!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Pray for me ^^

Stupid fuc*king Math T's teacher!

Arh...I'm very pek cek now..!!!
Today,during the math lesson,a dog- my math teacher,keep scolding at me and charlyne..

I don't know why you like to scold us,what's the point of scolding us? har???

What the fu*k..!!!

Let's me tell you the story~~~~~~~~~

I entered Bio 2 this year,I met the math teacher whom is also the class teacher...

At the beginning of this year,I feel like don't want to listen to what he talks...

you know WHY???

tell me,how you gonna listen to a dog that explain bullshit things to you?

I tried my very best to ignored him by doing my things QUIETLY during his lesson...

He scolded me:" you thought you keep quiet means you respect the teacher ad har? I don't think so,your body language showed you are disrespect me !"

I was like.....what the hell? Did I tease on you like others? Did I stared at you disrespectfully? Did I contradict what you said? Did I do anything that showed I'm different from others?

Ei hello,stupid math doggy..!!! You know that they also didn't listen to your crocks??? You don't know,don't you? Because they are good in acting...!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I have been patience for the pass 8 months,I have enough with your childish behaviour by teasing me and my friend...

I'm human also,like you said you are human,you have feeling,so do I...

You keep saying I not good in my altitude,but do you know that I didn't behave like that in other lessons...

you SUCKS...!!!!!!!!!! seriously...!!!

Now only I wanna write this blog,because I can't tolerate with you anymore,what I do also wrong..!!!

Now you can't solve the math question,then you scolded me and charlyne by saying" teacher also human,makes mistake...now I asked you to see the mistakes,you also don't know how to do arh?" Then I replied you for the FIRST time" Sir,we don't know how to do mah..."

you said"don't know how to do then no need to do arh? others don't know also try to do"

My expression was =.=".....

this kind of words ,you as a teacher also dare to say har?

you don't know how to solve the question,then you blamed on us???? wtf???

You don't force me to jump off from there,I told you..!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

keep teasing and scolding us...!!!!!!!!!!

why your mouth so smelly one???!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ish!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Malaysian? or Non-bumiputera?

Our country have achieved independence day since 31st of August 1957..

It is about 54 years that we, Malaysian have gone through together...

such as,the darkest day that marked in the histories of Malaysia - civil war(513 incident)...

I don't know the pass as I haven't born on that time,

I learnt the Malaysia's histories from the text book,but I don't know whether the it is true or not? <>

I have lived in Malaysia for the past 19 years,frankly speaking,I proud to be a Malaysian...

BUT...

there's a certain issue that I confused about it....that I feel unfair about it......that I feel disappointed with it......that I sad about it......that I frustrated about it....that I DON'T FEEL LIKE BEING A MALAYSIAN...><"

Together,

we are Malaysian..

but,why Malaysian are categorised into two main groups? the BUMIPUTERA and the NON-BUMIPUTERA?

Can anyone answer my question? Perhaps even Najib has no idea about it..

First of all,bumiputera was introduced by Tunku Abdu Rahman which recognised the "special position" of Malays,natives of Sarawak and natives of Sabah and with the name of bumiputera,you can ENJOY the benefits among the local institutions,organisation,departments and OF COURSE government...it just like holding the VVIP pass in your life...

As a non bumiputera,I feel sad about this...

"Special position" ??? Gosh,now ad 21st century,why do the bumiputera still need those stuffs to sustain their life? If in the past,I agreed that you do so,this is because our chinese ancestors doesn't really fight for their rights(what I learnt from textbook><")...

but,COME ON..!! We have independent for the past 54 years,are the bumiputera still unable feed their own food?? too bad...!! what I say is...bumiputera are like a kid,never grow up!!

Do you guys know that in the posts in public sector are offered more than 2/3 to the bumiputera...?

Try to picture yourself when you are in hospital or police station,are the workers really play their roles? Are they really dedicated as what we imagine? Honestly,NO..!!!!!!!

Why is this so? I shall blame the " special position" then~~~

The more you helped them,the more lazier they become..

Seriously speaking,how many of them really appreciate what the government offered?

How many of them really study HARD to achieve their goals? HOW MANY of them?

Bumiputera with pointer 3.00 can enter local university without any difficulties and they are offered with their first choice of course ;On the other hand,a non bumiputera study so hard and get 4 flat,she applied for pharmacy course,and yet,she get her fourth choice - optometric course...

Then what is the point we,non bumiputera studied so hard? because the chances are always given to those bumiputera...this this one of the millions reason of brain-drain that occurred

This is what we called the "special position"...

Seriously,I hope that government should change their policies and abolish the "special position"...

NO OFFENCES,PLEASE..!! DON'T SUE ME IN COURT....

Bumiputera always blamed that we,non bumiputera don't know how to appreciate what we have today,blamed that we always the one who migrates to other and BETTER country..

Just...

don't blame us,because our Malaysia government don't know how to appreciate the capable non bumiputera and keep hiring those who are unable to play their role in every sectors..

For bumiputera,don't think that we are greedy,unsatisfied with these...

because you are not us,you never know the feeling of disappointed..!!!

Do you know the feeling after you have studied and work hard for it,but still....you CAN'T get it compared to those who don't really fight for it? ? ?

This is what we so called 1 Malaysia..!!!!!! There is no truly fairness that exist in here...

I have no words to describe about it anymore,the more I write,the more I fed up with it....haizz><"....

LAME school ever - SMK Gajah Berang!!!

From the first day I stepped into this school,I can't find the feeling od belonging as in the STCM there...

Feeling do not same anymore,and why is this so??

I tried..and try...TRY..TRY!!!!!!!!!

but,I still hate this fu*king school...!!

There,

I found the system was so untidy...

for example,

the GPK koku asked us to wear pants and t-shirt for the koku day.and yes,we wore for about half year,then our "CLEVER" GPK Form 6 came and scolded us said" who ask you all to wear the pants? I want the girls wear the school's skirts and boys wear the school's pants...."

=.=".....then we discuss ourselves and said " datin asked us to wear pants,now you asked us to wear skirt...=.="....who shall we listen to?

Before that,there's some issues why I hate this DAMN school..!!

you know what? We have to pay for using the hall..=.="...about RM180...

I was like...OMG,our school,but using the hall have to pay? The hall isn't provided with the air-con also? why shall we pay? @@...

then,during the teacher's day....

because of a teacher said want to eat satay,so the committee that consists of form six's students asked all form sixes student to pay RM10 for the teacher celebration,and this only for the Form six's teachers,not whole school...!! eh,hello...last time we at STCM hor,we paid RM0.50 only lor...=.=",

yes,you may say I'm stingy,RM 10 only mah...just pay lah...SORRY,I CAN'T!!! if you can't manage the money well,you are not suitable to be A LEADER to handle the celebration..

One thing you all should know,GBS students have get used to take and ask money from the school authorities,included the bas fee(last time we at STCM,everything we have to pay for ourself,not as lucky as them),but this have becoming a bad habit for them... whenever they need money to held a programme ,they just have to take from school=.=".....

Next,

during the parent's day..

I was standing outside to wait my parent come and take the result for me as they come to this LAME school for the first time...

then a teacher came and said "don't wait at here,go back your class" and I said" I have to wait my parent"...then I ignored her,she also go away then..

after a while,stupid fu"cking PN.LYE came and scolded me loudly,said" who ask you to wait at here...I say go back to your class..!! Now...!! " I was like...arh....sei teacher,why can't wait at here? last time my STCM allowed me to do so..!!

Moreover,I don't really feel like staying in the Bio 2 anymore.!!! The math teacher was so childish,denied what he had done to me and Charlyne...=.="...he keep isolates us as we were bio 3 last year...

somemore,I hate YOU...I tried to ignored your silly action during the class,but you better don't cross your line..!!!!!!!!!!!! you know you are very very very SILLY & CHILDISH not? you better watch out your mouth,don't make me slap at you...!!!!><"....

I can't find my happiness at there,I tried,JUST...............I not belong to there...my spirit at bio 3...

when my mood was down,they cheers me up,not bio 2!!!

I LOVE BIO 3^^....although I not there anymore,they still accept me as their classmate and make me laugh always...XD

thanks,guys~~~~love you all,bio 3... =)

3 more more months TO GO..!!! I can do it..!!! trust me!!

IF only I can,I won't admit that SMKGB is not my school and Bio 2 is my class...!!!

whenever I feel sad at bio 2,I'll go back to bio 3 to search back my happiness..

whenever I feel I'm not belong to SMK Gajah Berang,I'll recall back the good memories at STCM^^

Bad day ever...

Today,13th June 2011 is the worst day of my life...I guess...

Haiz....don't know where to begin...

Today,I took my MUET result,it turns out like what I expected...

I get only higher Band 3...;

I get 88/120 in reading,but no point...! my Writing can't get half of the full mark-90,get only 42...

BUT....

I did expect that actually...

Cause I don't know what happen that day,my brain can't squeeze out some ideas...I was like...arh...!! Hamtam first lah...><"....then I get 42/90 at the end =.="....

Well,blame who?? Me lah,of course~~~

That was not the worst part...

The worst part is...... I less one mark then can get Band 4 ad,but is lower band 4 lah...!! F**K..!!! Why I so bad luck??!! My friend get 180(band 4),ngam ngam...so lucky....but,ME??? haiz...................

Then my friends asked me to recheck the result,see whether can get the 1 mark not,but have to pay RM70...

I answered back " RM70 for you to recheck your result,it doesn't means that you will get what you want,maybe worse than now,why don't I pay RM60 to retake,right?"

They said" aiyo,if I can't get band 3 for next time,how?? Waste my RM60"

I was like =.="......

Yes,Band 3 is enough for you to enter the local-U...,but getting higher band is definitely better what~~

I'm not satisfied with my result,and I'll resit the paper until I can get higher Band 4..!!! arh...><"

Then next year I can take my other international's English papers...

My bad luck continue till our MUET NOON rehearsal...

After the practise,teacher required us to record down our dialogue...

WTF,where got time to do?? Then,Keat Long,Chye Wat,Ee Woon , Yoke Man and I went to Chye Wat's house to record it...

SO RUSHING~~~ because Thursday gonna be our real MUET NOON performance ad..

Other than that,my aunt just passed away today...!!!!

ARH...!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

After my grandfather had passed away 3 months and more,is my aunt's turn now...

Now better...it happen after my holidays,huh......

but,my Mom....

.........................................haiz...............................................................

I was shocked when I heard this news,because we were together handling my grandfather's funeral and she was ok that time...

Time flies and it passes so cruelly...

HAIZ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Leader? ? ?

Haiz....

I don't know where to begin cause I found myself too tired to be a good leader...

haizzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.....................

I don't know whether is my problem or yours??
I wonder actually?
I found myself a leader for every event,for every post that I hold,for every activities,for every assignments...

Maybe I just a busybody??

or.....

No one are suit to be leader,except me?? I don't think so... ><"

I find many are capable to hold the post,just...you all are unwilling to sacrifice your time,or another word...SELFFISH
CAN I afford to handle all??

Well....
I have handled parts of these...just...

I found so difficult to cooperate with U6B2's classmates...

I had be the leader for my PRS club,I tried my best to be accepted by my ''followers"....YES,I did it...

I had be the leader for my R & D (my ex-classmate)group,well....again,they appreciate what I taught them and how I ordered them,and my group-mate said :"Juliana...thanks God,we have you as our group's leader,if not,we aren't able to finish all the works.." I just replied " Is ok...^^"...but,sincerely,I felt warm inside my heart...the feeling to be appreciated is GREAT...

Again,I be the leader for my Biology's project ,our group manage to finish it on time and hand it to teacher while others still can't finish it till now...thanks for their cooperation too...you guys are ROCKS..!! haha... =)

Now.......

I be the leader for U6B2's muet noon performance...

and yet,I thought everyone will give their full support and energy to make the performance to success...

but...

I was WRONG....!!!

I tried hard to think the storyline,and I asked whether you guys have any suggestion and opinion or not,you all KEEP QUITE...

Again,I asked you all to stay back and practise,you all said " wanna stay back meh??","until what time wor?? aiyo...","...."

Others were present that day,only 4 absent...but,I felt grateful actually...still have 11 people attended...

of course for YOU....you too,absent yourself....well,I don't aspect you to come also...><"...

you know what??

DON'T BLAME ME WHEN THE SHOW IS NOT SUCCESS...!! that's all...

Cause I also don't really like this class...

I just MISS 5SN1 2009...I remembered that whenever we have activities,we all will give full supports and ideas to make the activities success...we shared our joys and sadness together..

that moment was sweet...I miss that.... T^T....