Countdown for STPM...

It's coming unknowingly..

I was unprepared,looking at the calender,waiting to the times to pass......................

28 days to go...

seems like going to pay my revenge soon...

I remembered the days before SPM,yet..I was unprepared...that's why I ended up studying in Form 6...

I'm going to pay my debt,hopefully this time,I can defeat it cruelly,leaving no regrets in my future days...

I'm in the nerve-breaking condition each day,undergo strenuous life and suffering insomnia every single night...

I'm worried about the results,I'm worried I can't score a good result to enable me to pursue my degree course in local university..these strange feelings are terrifying...

Who knows? NO ONE....,God knows the best...

This is my final exam,I MUST make sure I can do it...

I MUST.............................

Now,I'm hoping the LUCK to be with me all the time..!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Pray for me ^^

Stupid fuc*king Math T's teacher!

Arh...I'm very pek cek now..!!!
Today,during the math lesson,a dog- my math teacher,keep scolding at me and charlyne..

I don't know why you like to scold us,what's the point of scolding us? har???

What the fu*k..!!!

Let's me tell you the story~~~~~~~~~

I entered Bio 2 this year,I met the math teacher whom is also the class teacher...

At the beginning of this year,I feel like don't want to listen to what he talks...

you know WHY???

tell me,how you gonna listen to a dog that explain bullshit things to you?

I tried my very best to ignored him by doing my things QUIETLY during his lesson...

He scolded me:" you thought you keep quiet means you respect the teacher ad har? I don't think so,your body language showed you are disrespect me !"

I was like.....what the hell? Did I tease on you like others? Did I stared at you disrespectfully? Did I contradict what you said? Did I do anything that showed I'm different from others?

Ei hello,stupid math doggy..!!! You know that they also didn't listen to your crocks??? You don't know,don't you? Because they are good in acting...!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I have been patience for the pass 8 months,I have enough with your childish behaviour by teasing me and my friend...

I'm human also,like you said you are human,you have feeling,so do I...

You keep saying I not good in my altitude,but do you know that I didn't behave like that in other lessons...

you SUCKS...!!!!!!!!!! seriously...!!!

Now only I wanna write this blog,because I can't tolerate with you anymore,what I do also wrong..!!!

Now you can't solve the math question,then you scolded me and charlyne by saying" teacher also human,makes mistake...now I asked you to see the mistakes,you also don't know how to do arh?" Then I replied you for the FIRST time" Sir,we don't know how to do mah..."

you said"don't know how to do then no need to do arh? others don't know also try to do"

My expression was =.=".....

this kind of words ,you as a teacher also dare to say har?

you don't know how to solve the question,then you blamed on us???? wtf???

You don't force me to jump off from there,I told you..!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

keep teasing and scolding us...!!!!!!!!!!

why your mouth so smelly one???!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ish!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Malaysian? or Non-bumiputera?

Our country have achieved independence day since 31st of August 1957..

It is about 54 years that we, Malaysian have gone through together...

such as,the darkest day that marked in the histories of Malaysia - civil war(513 incident)...

I don't know the pass as I haven't born on that time,

I learnt the Malaysia's histories from the text book,but I don't know whether the it is true or not? <>

I have lived in Malaysia for the past 19 years,frankly speaking,I proud to be a Malaysian...

BUT...

there's a certain issue that I confused about it....that I feel unfair about it......that I feel disappointed with it......that I sad about it......that I frustrated about it....that I DON'T FEEL LIKE BEING A MALAYSIAN...><"

Together,

we are Malaysian..

but,why Malaysian are categorised into two main groups? the BUMIPUTERA and the NON-BUMIPUTERA?

Can anyone answer my question? Perhaps even Najib has no idea about it..

First of all,bumiputera was introduced by Tunku Abdu Rahman which recognised the "special position" of Malays,natives of Sarawak and natives of Sabah and with the name of bumiputera,you can ENJOY the benefits among the local institutions,organisation,departments and OF COURSE government...it just like holding the VVIP pass in your life...

As a non bumiputera,I feel sad about this...

"Special position" ??? Gosh,now ad 21st century,why do the bumiputera still need those stuffs to sustain their life? If in the past,I agreed that you do so,this is because our chinese ancestors doesn't really fight for their rights(what I learnt from textbook><")...

but,COME ON..!! We have independent for the past 54 years,are the bumiputera still unable feed their own food?? too bad...!! what I say is...bumiputera are like a kid,never grow up!!

Do you guys know that in the posts in public sector are offered more than 2/3 to the bumiputera...?

Try to picture yourself when you are in hospital or police station,are the workers really play their roles? Are they really dedicated as what we imagine? Honestly,NO..!!!!!!!

Why is this so? I shall blame the " special position" then~~~

The more you helped them,the more lazier they become..

Seriously speaking,how many of them really appreciate what the government offered?

How many of them really study HARD to achieve their goals? HOW MANY of them?

Bumiputera with pointer 3.00 can enter local university without any difficulties and they are offered with their first choice of course ;On the other hand,a non bumiputera study so hard and get 4 flat,she applied for pharmacy course,and yet,she get her fourth choice - optometric course...

Then what is the point we,non bumiputera studied so hard? because the chances are always given to those bumiputera...this this one of the millions reason of brain-drain that occurred

This is what we called the "special position"...

Seriously,I hope that government should change their policies and abolish the "special position"...

NO OFFENCES,PLEASE..!! DON'T SUE ME IN COURT....

Bumiputera always blamed that we,non bumiputera don't know how to appreciate what we have today,blamed that we always the one who migrates to other and BETTER country..

Just...

don't blame us,because our Malaysia government don't know how to appreciate the capable non bumiputera and keep hiring those who are unable to play their role in every sectors..

For bumiputera,don't think that we are greedy,unsatisfied with these...

because you are not us,you never know the feeling of disappointed..!!!

Do you know the feeling after you have studied and work hard for it,but still....you CAN'T get it compared to those who don't really fight for it? ? ?

This is what we so called 1 Malaysia..!!!!!! There is no truly fairness that exist in here...

I have no words to describe about it anymore,the more I write,the more I fed up with it....haizz><"....

LAME school ever - SMK Gajah Berang!!!

From the first day I stepped into this school,I can't find the feeling od belonging as in the STCM there...

Feeling do not same anymore,and why is this so??

I tried..and try...TRY..TRY!!!!!!!!!

but,I still hate this fu*king school...!!

There,

I found the system was so untidy...

for example,

the GPK koku asked us to wear pants and t-shirt for the koku day.and yes,we wore for about half year,then our "CLEVER" GPK Form 6 came and scolded us said" who ask you all to wear the pants? I want the girls wear the school's skirts and boys wear the school's pants...."

=.=".....then we discuss ourselves and said " datin asked us to wear pants,now you asked us to wear skirt...=.="....who shall we listen to?

Before that,there's some issues why I hate this DAMN school..!!

you know what? We have to pay for using the hall..=.="...about RM180...

I was like...OMG,our school,but using the hall have to pay? The hall isn't provided with the air-con also? why shall we pay? @@...

then,during the teacher's day....

because of a teacher said want to eat satay,so the committee that consists of form six's students asked all form sixes student to pay RM10 for the teacher celebration,and this only for the Form six's teachers,not whole school...!! eh,hello...last time we at STCM hor,we paid RM0.50 only lor...=.=",

yes,you may say I'm stingy,RM 10 only mah...just pay lah...SORRY,I CAN'T!!! if you can't manage the money well,you are not suitable to be A LEADER to handle the celebration..

One thing you all should know,GBS students have get used to take and ask money from the school authorities,included the bas fee(last time we at STCM,everything we have to pay for ourself,not as lucky as them),but this have becoming a bad habit for them... whenever they need money to held a programme ,they just have to take from school=.=".....

Next,

during the parent's day..

I was standing outside to wait my parent come and take the result for me as they come to this LAME school for the first time...

then a teacher came and said "don't wait at here,go back your class" and I said" I have to wait my parent"...then I ignored her,she also go away then..

after a while,stupid fu"cking PN.LYE came and scolded me loudly,said" who ask you to wait at here...I say go back to your class..!! Now...!! " I was like...arh....sei teacher,why can't wait at here? last time my STCM allowed me to do so..!!

Moreover,I don't really feel like staying in the Bio 2 anymore.!!! The math teacher was so childish,denied what he had done to me and Charlyne...=.="...he keep isolates us as we were bio 3 last year...

somemore,I hate YOU...I tried to ignored your silly action during the class,but you better don't cross your line..!!!!!!!!!!!! you know you are very very very SILLY & CHILDISH not? you better watch out your mouth,don't make me slap at you...!!!!><"....

I can't find my happiness at there,I tried,JUST...............I not belong to there...my spirit at bio 3...

when my mood was down,they cheers me up,not bio 2!!!

I LOVE BIO 3^^....although I not there anymore,they still accept me as their classmate and make me laugh always...XD

thanks,guys~~~~love you all,bio 3... =)

3 more more months TO GO..!!! I can do it..!!! trust me!!

IF only I can,I won't admit that SMKGB is not my school and Bio 2 is my class...!!!

whenever I feel sad at bio 2,I'll go back to bio 3 to search back my happiness..

whenever I feel I'm not belong to SMK Gajah Berang,I'll recall back the good memories at STCM^^

Bad day ever...

Today,13th June 2011 is the worst day of my life...I guess...

Haiz....don't know where to begin...

Today,I took my MUET result,it turns out like what I expected...

I get only higher Band 3...;

I get 88/120 in reading,but no point...! my Writing can't get half of the full mark-90,get only 42...

BUT....

I did expect that actually...

Cause I don't know what happen that day,my brain can't squeeze out some ideas...I was like...arh...!! Hamtam first lah...><"....then I get 42/90 at the end =.="....

Well,blame who?? Me lah,of course~~~

That was not the worst part...

The worst part is...... I less one mark then can get Band 4 ad,but is lower band 4 lah...!! F**K..!!! Why I so bad luck??!! My friend get 180(band 4),ngam ngam...so lucky....but,ME??? haiz...................

Then my friends asked me to recheck the result,see whether can get the 1 mark not,but have to pay RM70...

I answered back " RM70 for you to recheck your result,it doesn't means that you will get what you want,maybe worse than now,why don't I pay RM60 to retake,right?"

They said" aiyo,if I can't get band 3 for next time,how?? Waste my RM60"

I was like =.="......

Yes,Band 3 is enough for you to enter the local-U...,but getting higher band is definitely better what~~

I'm not satisfied with my result,and I'll resit the paper until I can get higher Band 4..!!! arh...><"

Then next year I can take my other international's English papers...

My bad luck continue till our MUET NOON rehearsal...

After the practise,teacher required us to record down our dialogue...

WTF,where got time to do?? Then,Keat Long,Chye Wat,Ee Woon , Yoke Man and I went to Chye Wat's house to record it...

SO RUSHING~~~ because Thursday gonna be our real MUET NOON performance ad..

Other than that,my aunt just passed away today...!!!!

ARH...!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

After my grandfather had passed away 3 months and more,is my aunt's turn now...

Now better...it happen after my holidays,huh......

but,my Mom....

.........................................haiz...............................................................

I was shocked when I heard this news,because we were together handling my grandfather's funeral and she was ok that time...

Time flies and it passes so cruelly...

HAIZ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Leader? ? ?

Haiz....

I don't know where to begin cause I found myself too tired to be a good leader...

haizzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.....................

I don't know whether is my problem or yours??
I wonder actually?
I found myself a leader for every event,for every post that I hold,for every activities,for every assignments...

Maybe I just a busybody??

or.....

No one are suit to be leader,except me?? I don't think so... ><"

I find many are capable to hold the post,just...you all are unwilling to sacrifice your time,or another word...SELFFISH
CAN I afford to handle all??

Well....
I have handled parts of these...just...

I found so difficult to cooperate with U6B2's classmates...

I had be the leader for my PRS club,I tried my best to be accepted by my ''followers"....YES,I did it...

I had be the leader for my R & D (my ex-classmate)group,well....again,they appreciate what I taught them and how I ordered them,and my group-mate said :"Juliana...thanks God,we have you as our group's leader,if not,we aren't able to finish all the works.." I just replied " Is ok...^^"...but,sincerely,I felt warm inside my heart...the feeling to be appreciated is GREAT...

Again,I be the leader for my Biology's project ,our group manage to finish it on time and hand it to teacher while others still can't finish it till now...thanks for their cooperation too...you guys are ROCKS..!! haha... =)

Now.......

I be the leader for U6B2's muet noon performance...

and yet,I thought everyone will give their full support and energy to make the performance to success...

but...

I was WRONG....!!!

I tried hard to think the storyline,and I asked whether you guys have any suggestion and opinion or not,you all KEEP QUITE...

Again,I asked you all to stay back and practise,you all said " wanna stay back meh??","until what time wor?? aiyo...","...."

Others were present that day,only 4 absent...but,I felt grateful actually...still have 11 people attended...

of course for YOU....you too,absent yourself....well,I don't aspect you to come also...><"...

you know what??

DON'T BLAME ME WHEN THE SHOW IS NOT SUCCESS...!! that's all...

Cause I also don't really like this class...

I just MISS 5SN1 2009...I remembered that whenever we have activities,we all will give full supports and ideas to make the activities success...we shared our joys and sadness together..

that moment was sweet...I miss that.... T^T....

just....MIND YOUR WORDS....

Frankly speaking...
I damn hate you now...
for God sake,I try to be patient with you,and yet,you cross your line...
that is it..!! I have enough with you...
Since the first day, I stepped into this class(U6B2),you aren't unhappy with my presence...don't you?
Not to worry,you ARE NOT my competitor at all..cause you are not qualified to compete with me...

I answered wrongly for my Generel studies 's question that teacher asked,and you LAUGHED at me loudly...that's the first time you laughed at me...
but then,my score for General studies are ways too far/higher than you,DUDE!!! Look at your result only you start laughing,please!! Don't embarrassed yourself...

And yes,I admitted that my English isn't proficient as you are, therefore,I asked your help to reedit the script of the MUET PERFORMANCE,and what f'king reason you gave? "Is your English too good,or my English too poor,I can't understand what you wrote...hahahaha..."...that's your answer when I asked for the script as I had give you few days to prepare the script...
I was angry that day,but I keep quite and walk away,and I didn't ask from your help anymore,cause I don't need you,MORON!!!

Again,I was talking about my chemistry's result in FORM4 & 5 with Charlyne,I said that I never passed my Chemistry test and yet you said" this is because you are stupid...",then I answered back" Now your turn to become STUPID? why your Chemistry can't pass while I passed with flying color result??hahahaha..."...
I don't wish to do so,but you forced me,thus,I have to do something to fight my right back..!!

AGAIN,this time you have a little bit OVER,perhaps you talk with your ass...
yes,I understand,cause you just same as your mother,talk nonsense!!
My ex-classmate(U6B3)-Su Ting distributed a schedule for this coming Pulau Kukup's trip and there was some typing errors..and you said " aiyo,Bio 3 mah...stupid people...sure don't know how to type one...STUPID mah...bio 3 really stupid..haha..." you keep repeating the word " STUPID"...
I was reading newspaper behind,stood up and walk to front where Charlyne sit at..and yet...you continue saying Bio 3 stupid,I was like...arh...wanna go and slap you...but I little bit late...Charlyne couldn't tolerant with you anymore and she said" Walao...your mouth at your ass,is it? Can you talk with your brain...? "
I was grate that Charlyne spoke it first,or else..I will definitely go and slap your f'cking's mouth...
Is ok that you don't like us,cause we were bio 3 students last year..I understand...
but it just show how childish you are when you behave like this,showing that you are not going to cooperate with us...

that's fine for me,cause I don't need your help and I definitely did better that you,and to let you know,I can enter bio 1,but I refused to do so...I have pointer 3.50,top 10 in 108 people in all Upper sixes,you CAN'T bet me...!! LOSER...you don't ever reached CGPA of 2.80...try to bet me IF YOU CAN.... =)
and so....DON'T CALL BIO 3 STUDENT STUPID...!!! You can call when you are qualified to do so,but the reality is...YOU CAN'T!!!
however,thank you for " motivating " me to get higher a pointer...

JUST...mind your words...^^

REST....for now,maybe??

huh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I just finished my stressful EXAM!!!!!!!!!!!!!
oh yes...!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I have been under tension for at least one month due to this mid-year exam...
hmm...
one word to describe : exhausted..........!!!!! regardless spiritually or physically....
No one understand my feeling...no one know my actual feeling is..
I'm scared...scared I can't maintain my scores(pointer)....
Seriously speaking,I'm NOT a brilliant student or a very smart girl...
but,I did my best and I try hard...

For the next test,I'm going to try harder and harder..!!!!
^^~~~~~~~

HAPPY MOOD~~~~~

I'm "fine".....

"How are you recently?"
"I'm fine,thanks..."
It seem like a normal conversation for you,but,not for me..
I'm fine in other sense,
Spiritually,I'm damn exhausted and totally lost...

My grandpa passed away last Friday,
is fine for me,I still can accept the truth that he gone..
because this is the life's cycle...
This few days,
I was busy dealing with my grandpa's funeral..
Like hell,
running here and there,read the prayer,serving the relatives and...
watching the sorrowful scene(my mom and others aunt were crying so badly),while I can do nothing..!!!
I wish I can comfort them,but I speak no words..haizz...

I'm tired,tired and tired..!!!
I hope to take a deep breathe after my stressful exam,
but then,
my grandpa passed away,making me no time to rest at all...
Everyone have two faces,me too...
I showed my adamant side,because this is the only way to avoid people keep looking down on you...
I determined to get 4 flat in STPM,because I don't like my relatives and my new classmates to look down on me...
I'm not born with silver spoon,but I will change my future..and my family's future...
I don't have the courage to expose my weak side...
that's why I don't show others people my weak and helpless side,I don't........................
I believe in myself...
Just...wait me for 6 more years,I will show them that I,Juliana Koh Pei Nee is capable to change my family's future...
I CAN...

Am I strong enough??
Who knows??
just,i need some rest...
that's all...
I'm FINE...!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Single Valentile's day...

Yesterday was the day fulled of loves and surprises for those lovers...it's the Valentine's day...!!! ^^
Not for me of course...

Does Valentine's day so meaningful for everyone???~ DON'T KNOW...XD
Early in the morning,expect other lovers to celebrate in sweetly,while I will stand aside silently..hehe...^^
My friend wanted to give his flower to one Form 4 girl,but,he not dare to do so,he asked my monitor to give it to that lucky girl...how timid he was when dealing with love...
perhaps everyone are same either...
I'm a very good example..
IF I admire someone,I don't even dare to talk to him...wanna start conversation with him,but no ideas...><"...
No doubt,this year...I DON'T HAVE someone to admire....
maybe I was TIRED being cheated and cheated and CHEATED throughout the relationship...
I DON'T put my faith on men...
MAN are always liars....

My closed friend,XXX...just broke up with her boyfriend 4 days ago...
She professed that her bf started not to sms or call her after her birthday...
She always so care about him and waiting for him to come to her house to visit her family on CNY...because he did pay a visit to her family last year....
I don't know why her bf treated her like that..
She is nice girl,seldom go out with other guys...
She was so sweet when others talking about him...
this man sent a message saying that he the one who break up with her first...LOLX...!!
ei hello...why you need the word first??
He didn't send a single message since that time....><"
I don't understand,he is the one started to promise to take care of her and bla bla bla...(bullshit stuffs),but why the same person who let go of this relationship first..??
you know why?
BECAUSE MAN CHANGED swiftly...I mean some..
and I went through same situation as her...

IF YOU THINK YOU CAN'T HANDLE HER,DON'T START A RELATIONSHIP...!!
Please...I beg to all man in this world...
don't ever try to hurt the one you promised to take care....
GIRLS,love yourself...nobody love you better than yourself....

We are so young,no need so rush to find someone to love...^^
Happy single Valentine's day ..!!!^^

It is a sorrowful drama or what??

Early in the Friday morning,about 2a.m++....my dad received a call from my mother's sister..
An anxious and panic voice came out from the phone saying that my Grandpa was sent to hospital because he keep vomiting and totally fatigue...
without any hesitation,my parents rushed to hospital to make sure he is fine...
While I was at home praying.....

My Grandpa does not lives together with us,he is staying with his daughter-in-law and her children only(because my uncle passed away last year)...
Frankly,I dislike this aunt so much especially after this incident...
you will know why after I write everything about her....

SHE,perhaps is the daughter of the bitch...
SHE isn't showing a good example as a mother and a wife...


Story begin like this............................
Before my uncle passed away because of his heart failure,
I still can accept her as my aunt...
before my uncle's funeral,
she was just fine for me although I don't really like the ways she behaved...
she is a professional thief,stealing money from my house,and almost all my relatives(my mother side)and also her working place(this explain why she often change her job)...
she taught her four children the PROPER,AND APPROPRIATE ways to snatch others' wallets,phones and any stuffs that she wanted....
I can tolerate with her if she just only stole from my house...
however,I can't accept she is stealing my Grandpa's money when he was sleeping...
even when my grandpa was on the way to hospital,she still stealing from him..!!!!!!
Can you imaging? My Grandpa was totally unconscious and powerless to stop her..she still wanna stole it from my 80++ years old Grandpa....
She is not facing any financial problems (after my uncle passed away,she the one who inherit his insurance's money and etc),3 of the children is working too and so do her...
and why she keep stealing??!!!
Perhaps it have become her daily habits and she is addicted to it....@@

Story doesn't end like that...
once my uncle passed away,
she become the queen in that home and showed her true face...
Her stealing habits become worse and worse...
she not only steal,but...became a useless daughter in law....
She said to my mom and other aunts:
" I have no responsible to take care of your dad,he is your dad,not mine,I WON'T care about him. He have to pay me if he still wanna live along with me.That's all..."

I thought it was a dream,because this kind of scene and conversation will only be seem and heard in front of TV screen..
She changed dramatically....
show no mercy kicking my elder Grandpa out of her house..
then all my other aunts and mom keep quarreling with her,saying that the house was named under my Grandpa...
she the one who should leave,she refused to do so and CRY( hypocrite,isn't),saying that her husband just passed away and bla bla bla.....

However,my Grandpa resolved to stay with her(perhaps he was cheated by her tears)...
then,the Cinderalla story tale begin~~~~~~~
She not allowed my grandpa to phone us using home's no....
there's is one time,my mom phoned her to talk to my grandpa,she refused to answer my mom's calls,not only that,her son phoned back to my house to scold me with some ribaldry words...
This is the BRILLIANT mother that produce a INGENUOUS son...
Moreover,
she even not allowed my grandpa to eat with her(she said:"if you wanna eat,cook yourself,don't waste my money to look after you...")
therefore,my parents often asked him to come my house and enjoy lunch or dinner together..
Luckily my parents are not cold blooded human being...

~~~teng~~~~~teng~~~~~teng~~~~~
Now,she brought along with the expired breads to feed my Grandpa in hospital..!!!!!!
She wanna show to us that she have did her responsibilities as "filial" daughter in law...
BUT,she forgot that we can read the expiring date of the load of white bread....
she then said she is not free and some bullshit excuses not to visit my grandpa in hospital...
then,my mom cooked some porridge and bring some healthy meals for him...

I feel like wanna drive to her house,slap her and kick her ass on behalf of my Grandpa.....
but,I can't ;
I wanna let all people in this world to know this WOMAN and her defiant behaviors...
but,where to start?
I feel angry and fed up with her,I have try to control my patience and stand silently aside...
I hope she will change,but IMPOSSIBLE...><
I feel sorry and pity for my grandpa,but,I can do nothing....

haiz~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Grandpa,may Lord be with you...!!! God blessed you,please get well soon!!!

Dear Lord,please guide her and heal her soul...

Chinese New Year Celebration...

Today is 8th of Chinese New Year,today is also the day where most of the Hokkien people's important day...
But,not to me....I'm Catolik...that explain all...^^
and yet,now only I wanna write my blog about Chinese New Year Celebration...
no doubt,
I admit that I a little slow...haha...

This year Chinese New Year's holidays seem a little weird for me....perhaps is because brainless government who started our holidays 3 days earlier...,so we actually celebrated it for only 4days....lolx...
REALLY SPEECHLESS for their BRILLIANT's decisions...

...Suddenly.....
I recalled back my last year CNY's celebration...
It was awful,terrifying,unhappy and MOST meaningless celebration for me...
and yes,it was same day as Valentine's day....><"....
My uncle passed away,worked on the days of CNY><" and bla bla bla.....

This year,I agree that it was the most tiring CNY ever....
everything was just too rushing...
look like no time for us to prepare and really enjoy our CNY.....
BUT....
I was happy and satisfied with it....
Don;t know why...
perhaps is because I can went for visitation with bucks of OLD friends...
haha...I just like the feeling being in a group,a nice and fun group....
It is totally different from my situation now....
REALLY,the friends whom you just met can't compared with those who you have know for few years....
Even for a CNY's visitation(I mean my NEW friends) were so HESITATED to enjoy outgoing with us,can you imaging there about 20++ in the class(my ex-classmates),only FIVE were attended??
SPEECHLESS....so,I kept it silently.....perhaps,they think that visitation is wasting times....
I love visitation with my STCM's friends,it was fun,we talked any topics that came out from our mind,we don't care what it is...we just talked and talked and talked...
there's no SHY,EMBARRASSED and of course SILENT in our dictionary...
we can even hang out till late night...
I have to make some clarification here for my new classmates.
night outgoing doesn't mean you are BAD... =.="....ok??? and you all ad 19,still can't go till late night??? LOLX ......><"
However,I did manage to form my group Ji-Po's group with some my new friends..haha...
They are fine and nice...XD....
Luckily I still them as my friends....or else,I will suffering AUSTISM...

Back to CNY's celebration,
I have gained weight...lolx...T^T....
I can't resist the delicious and yummy cookies,snacks and drinks....
AND YET,now I'm drinking my Pu Erh tea as the slimming drink...haha....
it tasted good~~~~~~


hehe....I think that's all for today...

^^

I hate the feeling of PAIN....

Pain? what is pain? Why people suffer because of this?
Can't explain very details in here...
but one thing for sure...
I damn HATE the feeling of pain....

Two days a ago,I accidentally fell down at the roadside on the way to school...
My godness..!!!
Can you imagine it?
Well,
me myself also can't believe it....
It was such a embarrassing incident to recall back...><"...

Luckily,there's no people in front and behind me at that moment...
or else...I gonna dig a hole and bury myself in it...
BUT....there's always a but...
there was a lot got cars beside me,the drivers and the passengers in it had watched a nice show,perhaps a clown's show...><"
I can imagine how they felt about me when I walk until can accidentally fell down...
I don't why I can just kissed the roadside at that morning,by the time...there's no holes or other things that can cause myself to fall down...

Then,I quickly picked up my books and pretended nothings had happen...
I thought I didn't get any injuries because I can't see my hand and knees were actually bleeding...perhaps I too panic after that fall....><"...
After arriving the school...
I just realized that my palm and knees were so painful...
and I looked at them...
OMG...it's bleeding...
then I told my friends how I fell down...
they all laughed at me and said,
"aiyo,how come you walk also can fall down?? Are you daydreaming?? "
haha...
Indeed...
I really don't have proper answer for that...

As you see,
that was not my first time fall down and get injured badly...
but the question is,
WHY I always walk until can fall down???
Hmm....
I DON'T KNOW...!!! lolx....><"

then,I applied medicine with the help of my friend and also Mr.Chin...
It was such a embarrassing moment in my life...
I hardly can move or bend my knees after that"accident"...
the epidermis of my skin at the area of my knees had wore out because it kissed the road and stick on the it...
The pain is terrifying...!! Even now while I writing this blog,I can still feel the pain...T^T
When I bathed,I scream like a nut...lolz...
Same thing happen when I applied medicine on it....
I can't put my blanket while sleeping because it will touch my wounds,and wake me up from my dream because I can't stand the pain....!!

New life begin...

Yesterday night,I was busy countdown-ing with a bucks of friends...
31st December really was a memorable day for me...
Time flies like hell...
Just a twinkling moment,I'm now in 2011..gosh..!!!
and I was like..OMG.!!! I haven't done anything that really impress myself..=.="
Suddenly,I recall the incidents that happen in last year...
I still remember everything clearly...

2010 was a memorable year for me,
2010...I took my SPM result,thank you for those who lend me their helping hand when I faced difficulties in academic,and so,Miss Poh,I had proven that your student - I can scored in Physic without your helps,and also to let you know,I so damn hate you><" because of what you said and what you did to my brother!!!
2010... I broke up with him,the most hurting part,I guess...;I cried and being so down...I wish I could just forgive him and be friend with him as usual,but,I couldn't..so sorry,Ng Zheng,forgive my immaturity..
2010... had some quarrels with my friends,Weng Sheng and Chris,so sorry that I being so stingy when dealing with my relationship with him and made you all so fed up...I was blind that time until can't see the truth@@
2010...I separated with my closed friend - Anna,she further her studies at Genting Inti ; First time,we being apart,I was so hesitated to separated with her,but,life have to go on.. she's now studying in college,while I stunk in my Form 6 's life.. =.="
2010...I nearly enter Bakery college which is MIB,I collected all the information but my both parents disagree with my choice,they said I should choose a better path...then, I struggled and struggled,finally,I choose Form 6 as my final way...
2010...I registered myself at SMK GAJAG BERANG,the "top" school , I was so hesitated to study there,the teachers and the school authorities made me feel unfriendly,unlike in STCM...
2010... I being taught how to become pre-u student,thousand tan of schoolworks,assignments,tuition,presentations..lolz...X,X
2010... I met a lot of new friends regardless working or studying friends,I met my ex supervisor- a very nice and loves outgoing guy...glad to meet you,Eugene! Larry,@@...speechless when talk about him,17 years old ; Kai Xian,thank for teaching me the appropriate ways to enjoy china tea><"..; Wen li, laws are to be break,don't always follow the rules,and I can't be your whole life driver,must think your own transport,ok?^^ ; And my classmates and those whom I just met,wanna to let you all know,good to have you all as my friends..^^
2010... my first year to approach my STPM (Secondary final level exam) ,gosh . . . scared...!!!! T^T



However,2010 ended,I should erase those bad and awful memories,remember the sweet and wonderful moments...
2011,new year,new resolution..!!!!
New aims for 2011 are : get flying color result for my STPM,change my immaturity, behave like an adult,become MORE hardworking than before,don't getting into any relationship..!!!!
JULIANA KOH PEI NEE,must gambateh gao gao..!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
YES,I can...!!!!!